I just wanted to briefly touch on something that may, or may not be a factor in your recovery from sin in the Wilderness, and this may help you get through some of the tough times ahead. In my experience, and with the many people I have ministered to, and learned their story from, I have discovered a phenomenon that I have called the state of being an "Insuff " (insufficient). This condition may, or may nor apply to you.

These people have certain things in common, and if you know the condition, it will be easier to endure the symptoms and recovery, and implement the cure. Here are the common traits I have observed in literally hundreds of people;

1. One or both parents were drug abusers- Usually there has been a clear pattern of drug abuse in the family line that seems to get passed down to the children. When a child sees this, they not only learn this behavior as part of life, but they also believe that parent is no longer safe, so they take control and vow that they will never fully trust authority again, and they will be in control. But God is an authority that can and must be trusted. Drugs are a means to control our bodies and emotions, but they actually strip us of control.

2. Trauma, abuse, and neglect in childhood- These people have been through things in their childhood that have told them that life is not safe, and that they must be in control. This may include physical and/or sexual abuse (sometimes the sexual abuse may or may not be remembered), being neglected or abandoned (including adoption), emotional abuse by an angry controlling critical parent, or abusive siblings or schoolmates, poverty or being in want, having a parent that is a drug abuser of some form, etc.

3. A deep sense of needing something extra to face life- They will adopt pleasure habits (drugs, alcohol, smoking, porn, masturbation, controlling others, creating hidden stashes, television, food or eating disorders, relationship obsession etc.) usually visible in adolescence and this will continue into adult life, without these things the person feels empty, lonely, bored, and unprotected. When they cannot feed themselves with some form of pleasure, they feel uneasy and endangered, and will try to get them back again.

It is likely this condition is caused by a genetic chemical imbalance (sins of the father), this condition is worsened and developed by further drug abuse and/or pleasure idolatry, and the person is actually trying to "re-balance" themselves with chemicals and pleasure to feel right again. Early psychological trauma, and spirits of fear and addiction push them as adults to practice pleasure idolatry, and self-protection, but these spirits lose their power with each day, week, month, year, we refuse to feed them. You can be free.

This problem can be greatly remedied by;

1. Renouncing the sins of your ancestors and your sins verbally and repenting, it strips the spirits of any legal rights they have to torment the successive generations, also renouncing the idols of fear, control, pleasure idolatry, anger and unforgiveness toward parents, and distrust of God to protect and provide for us in life.

2. Facing the pain of your childhood, when we go back to the roots of the trauma, and acknowledge our pain, anger, sin of others, and forgive them and ourselves, it lessens the load of pain on our souls that we carry, and frees up more energy to live life again, less pain to medicate. It also helps restore our trust in God as we let these things go.

3. Take care of our bodies. We must realize we are in a state of unbalance, and pray for God to heal us. We must be careful about what we put into our bodies knowing that we are in a state of unbalance, and will be naturally seeking balance through anything that gives us the illusion of relief. Caffeine or stimulants can aggravate this condition. Exercise can also be a great help in offsetting this problem.

4. Prayer, facing your fears, like I heard someone say "Do it afraid", learning and accepting the truth that although God may allow evil to exist and act in this world for a set time, He is ultimately in control of everything, and everything that happens in your life, must go through Him first. He sets boundaries and limits to what happens to you. Obedience brings blessing, disobedience tends to bring pain and poverty. God will be faithful to you in the wilderness, to help weed out all things that hinder your progress