LK 7:20 When the men came to Jesus, they said, "John the Baptist sent us to you to ask, `Are you the one who was to come, or should we expect someone else?"

We all hit rough spots in the wilderness where doubt and depression come knocking at the door of our hearts to question whether we are off course, or whether we just imagined that God wanted us to live this crazy life of the wilderness in the first place. You may not even get a resounding "yes" from heaven when you pray about the matter. You may feel just as alone and abandoned as John did in his time of suffering and trial in prison. This is a time when you must trust God and just stand in faith, as you have had to do so many times in the past. Like I have heard it said, "When you can't trace His hand, trust His heart." Or, "When you suffer in darkness, remember what you learned in the light".

Think about this, if you were really that far off course and delusional, don't you think that God would have broken in at some point over the years and told you that you had taken a wrong turn? Of course He would have, and you are very likely not off course, your faith is just being tested and deepened. You see, God just wants our faith to rest on our trust in His goodness and character, and not on the circumstances or feelings that we either have, or don't have during this difficult time of training and transformation. And if and when God wants to talk to you about it, you may get an answer similar to what John got:

LK 7:21-23 At that very time Jesus cured many who had diseases, sicknesses and evil spirits, and gave sight to many who were blind. 22 So he replied to the messengers, "Go back and report to John what you have seen and heard: The blind receive sight, the lame walk, those who have leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the good news is preached to the poor. 23 Blessed is the man who does not fall away on account of me."

Try to think back on all that God has done for you, the miracles He performed to save you, the times He healed you or paid your rent miraculously, and all He has done to take care of you throughout this long wilderness time. Like I say, there is no way you could have gotten into this kind of life by accident. It takes careful planning and many restrictions put in place, to care for and keep someone in the wilderness. Your time of revival and blessing will come if you don't give up. You can get through this. Just remember that God only leads people into the wilderness that He knows can make it through it to the other side. God has not forgotten you, and the best thing that you can do is just concentrate on accomplishing whatever He wants to change in you that has been keeping you from going forward. These apparently little things that you are currently working on right now, can become big problems later on if not corrected back here. You will make it through this, so hang on my friend and know that your redemption from all this draws near.